Joe

So as you may or may not know, Joe proposed on Dec. 18th then broke it off on Jan. 7th.
I can't blame him though, I got so scared and nervous that I acted horribly and treated him like he didn't matter to me. I want nothing more than to work through it. He's asked me to not talk, text, call, or see him for a week. I've been keeping a journal/letters to him from every day this week. I've been writing my feelings and my random experiences. Like last night when I started panicking that he didn't love me anymore, Sean told me to open my scriptures and stop pouting. I somehow opened it to Psalms 46:10 which reads, "Be still and know that I am God." Wow.. what a way to tell me to chill out! but it was amazing, it totally made me feel like God was right there telling me that it will be ok and that it will work out. I sat up the canyon and more or less told God that I was going to marry Joe, and that I would change and be the person I should've been before everything went to hell. From what I know, he told me to go for it, take it head on and get that boy back! Because I love him, I need him, and most of all I want him in my life.